28 Weeks!

How far along? 28 Weeks. (On Christmas Day!)

Total weight gain/loss:Still hanging on to 24 lbs. I actually had the worst sinus infection ever over the last 2 weeks, and well, when you can't taste anything, it doesn't really entice you to eat much...

Maternity clothes? Oh yes, but I still rock my pre-preggo sweaters and jackets, with only one or two [top] buttons buttoned. 

Stretch marks? Bio Oil all day. Still none spotted yet...

Sleep: Sucky, especially with the added discomfort of not being able to breathe through your nose...(Luckily, I am on antibiotics now and feeling much better!) 
Best moment this week: Well last week I got the diabetes test over with! No gestational diabetes...everyone get excited!! It actually wasn't that bad, just tasted like a flat Sunkist. Anyway, the best moments this week would have to be all of baby's movements! She is a wild woman in there! I find it particularly funny that if I sit a certain way on the sofa, I can pretty much count down like 15 minutes before she finds her favorite position...nuzzled right in my right rib cage!! It's so weird to see the right side of my belly practically bulge out like a tumor! I think I could watch all of her fluid movements all day. And even  though some are painful, all of this is so amazing! 

Miss Anything? Well, with it being New Years Eve and all, you know I have to say a good cocktail :-) And maybe a cute sparkly top. But don't yall worry, I'm still rocking a glittery little maternity top tonight! 

 Movement:Tons!

Food cravings: Practically everything in sight now that I can taste again!

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing really. Not even coffee. I have even been indulging in some Starbucks (with some Christmas gift cards!) Yet I still haven't mustered up the courage to drink home made coffee just yet...

Gender: Girl!

Labor Signs: No

Belly Button in or out? Flat

Wedding rings on or off? On, still can't get them off!

Happy or Moody most of the time: So emotional this week. Just a big cry baby! Between being sick, being all sappy because of the holidays (I feel so blessed!), and the nursery coming together, I just can't contain myself! 

Looking forward to: Maternity pictures, showers, finishing up the nursery...birth :-)

Grow Strong my little eggplant!
Love,
Mommy

And some nursery progress...

 You can't really tell from the pics, but it's painted this pretty pinkish brown color called "Meadow Pink!" And the empty spot next to the night stand is where the glider we ordered will go! We are hoping it will get here before Sailor since they said it could take up to 12 weeks, and well, I only have like 10. 

26 Weeks!

How far along? 26 Weeks, 4 days. 

Total weight gain/loss: 24 lbs. My acid reflux was so bad last weekend, I couldn't keep anything down :-( it was horrible! Which likely explains the weight loss. But thanks to some wonderful mommy advice via Facebook, I think a combination of my prescription, tums, and a glass of milk at night has made it more manageable for now! Perhaps my suffering means Sailor will have a head full of dark hair...we shall see! 

Maternity clothes? Always. Funny story, I was very fortunate to get some great maternity hand-me downs from a friend of a friend,Summer, and while sorting through them with my non-pregnant friend, Stephanie, we made a "NO" pile, and had a good time laughing at some things thinking, "NO WAY!" Stephanie then suggested that I keep a few items I said,"NO WAY" to, because according to Summer (who has 3 kids), at some point I will get desperate. Fast forward to this past Thursday, when in desperate need for something warm, I sought out a big comfy sweater from the "NO Pile" and to tonight, as I sit here in the comfiest pair of huge pants I thought I'd never wear.

Stretch marks? Bio Oil all day!

Sleep: Sucks! Every night...SUCKS! Tossing and turning....tossing and turning. 
Best moment this week: Well, no doctor's appointments this week, but its been pretty great to peek into our newly painted nursery, with our newly assembled crib and changing table, courtesy of my sweet hubby! (still waiting on the dresser and night stand) Sometimes I just stand in there and imagine things a few months from now, other times I stand in there and get stressed out at how much is left to do! haha! 

Miss Anything? Cute outfits for the holidays! While browsing at Charming Charlie this weekend, (I can still splurge on jewelry!) I kept thinking, look at all these cute shirts for skinny people...must be nice!

 Movement:Tons!

Food cravings: Coke and milk! (Don't worry, not together!)

Anything making you queasy or sick: coffee, peanut butter (thanks to last weekend's acid reflux issues...)

Gender: Girl!

Labor Signs: No

Belly Button in or out? Flat, but not out! 

Wedding rings on or off? On, problem is they won't come off!

Happy or Moody most of the time: Mostly happy I'd say. (Maybe this is a better question for my hubby!)

Looking forward to: Doing more stuff to the nursery, maternity pictures, showers, birth :-) 
All kinds of things!
 
Grow Strong my little head of lettuce!
Love,
Mommy

24 Weeks!

How far along? 24 Weeks, 5 days.

Total weight gain/loss: 25 lbs!!! Yikes!! Thank you Thanksgiving! At my 23 week appointment I was at 21 lbs...fast forward one week (after Turkey Day...) and BAM! 25 LBS! My dream of only gaining 30 lbs seems to be dwindling! 

Maternity clothes? All day, every day. Well, except during the work week, my XS scrub pants still fit below my belly (HOLLA!) But my polo shirts are entirely too short, but being the stubborn Taurus that I am, I'm still rocking them, only with a long maternity tank underneath. I'm sure it looks ridiculous. 

Stretch marks? Bio Oil all day everyday baby! 

Sleep: Still sucky! I have got to get my butt off this sofa! I would say I accidentally fall asleep on here at least 3 days a week! And it is no bueno for my back!

Best moment this week:Well, back tracking a little...while in Arkansas over Thanksgiving (23 weeks) Will finally felt Sailor kick! And I was so relieved because I was so anxious for him to! She's tricky like her mama! Every time I'd put his hand on my belly...she'd stop. But now he's felt her a bunch! So has my mom, and mother in law! As for this week, the best moment had to have been seeing baby on screen again at my high-risk appointment, my mom came with me for the first time and it was so special to be able to share those moments with her. Also, I have been officially discharged as a high-risk patient (praise god!) My placenta moved right on up where it should be, and my cervix appears completely competent and able to maintain this pregnancy! Thank you for all the prayers.

Miss Anything? I know this might sound weird, but I will miss being high-risk. I got spoiled by all those ultrasounds...now I don't think I'll get another until probably the very end. I will also miss the doctor and staff there because they were so great!

 Movement:Tons!

Food cravings: Maybe my most bizarre one yet, but REAL COCA COLA! Doesn't sound so weird though right? But you see, I haven't had one in 5 1/2 years!! (I switched to Diet) But the other night leaving work it just hit me like a brick...I NEED A REAL FULL-SUGAR COKE RIGHT NOW! Fast forward to me in the Mickey D's drive thru... and  now, a terrible habit has formed.

Anything making you queasy or sick: coffee, my sweet sweet coffee! I will enjoy you again one day! 

Gender: Girl!

Labor Signs: No

Belly Button in or out? In, but getting shallower by the day (and by shallower, I mean I can no longer put my finger inside of it...it's like FLAT!) But not out yet!

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: I may or may not have had a crazy lady crying fit last week in a Gordman's dressing room while struggling (hardcore) to put my boots back on. Thank you to my precious husband for (eventually) helping me be able to laugh it off...

Looking forward to: I just want to hold her so bad. Every time I see a baby being born on TV, I want our time to be NOW! But I know this bun has to bake a bit longer! And I'm ok with that ;-)

Grow Strong my little canteloupe!
Love,
Mommy

22 Weeks!

How far along? 22 weeks 4 days (in this pic,still playing catch up...I make 24 this week!)

Total weight gain/loss: 18lbs (Waaaaaaaaaah!!)

Maternity clothes? Only thing you'll find me in these days....well, except for my yoga pants that still fit as long as they're under my belly!

Stretch marks? Bio Oil for the win!

Sleep: Gets suckier by the day! Turning over is such an ordeal now!

Best moment this week: Around late week 21 and week 22 I started feeling undeniable kicks! And they are wonderful! I love watching them through my shirt! To me they feel like little twitches or spasms all over my belly! On this week Will actually got to see one through my shirt, but hadn't felt it yet, Sailor is sneaky!

Miss Anything? Comfort, and cute clothes. I think maternity clothes are hideous and basically just spend my time trying to find the lesser of evils.

 Movement:Tons!

Food cravings: Cold stuff, mainly Icees! 

Anything making you queasy or sick: coffee, I hope to rekindle our love one day!

Gender: Girl!

Labor Signs: No

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time:Such a cry baby! Work is getting harder by the day, so I've been known to take a few moments to let it out once I get off!

Looking forward to: Decorating the nursery, showers, finally being able to hold her. So much to look forward to, and be thankful for.

Grow Strong my little papaya!
Love,
Mommy

20 weeks! It's a GIRL!

How far along? 20 weeks, 4 days (in this pic, I'm a little behind...newer post coming soon!)

Total weight gain/loss: 15 lbs (but I'm officially half way, so that's ok right? Here's to hoping I max out at 30!)

Maternity clothes? Loving my leggings and boots now that it's getting a little chilly!

Stretch marks?Finally got me some BIO OIL!! Slathering it on each and every day! I had a fire lit under me after one night my belly starting itching really badly and I convinced myself it was the forming of stretch marks!

Sleep: Still so so... better on the days I actually get up and go to bed instead of sleeping on the sofa!

Best moment this week:Well, to back track a little, at 19 it was finally finding out that baby is a GIRL!!! Who would have guessed? Certainly not me! There is a fairly ridiculous video on facebook of the actual moment we found out, and I'm a hot mess! HAHA! I truly thought it was a boy! And week 20 would probably be getting to dress my belly up as SNOOPY! So fun!

Miss Anything?Yummy rum punch at the annual Halloween party we attend!

 Movement: A little I think! Although, I still have a hard time deciphering whether or not it's just gas! haha! 

Food cravings: Halloween candy was pretty good to me this week!

Anything making you queasy or sick: coffee, I wonder if I'll ever like it again?

Gender: GIRL!!! Miss Sailor Annabelle

Labor Signs: No

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: I think I have Halloween candy to thank for my happiness this week!

Looking forward to: Decorating the nursery! And feeling more kicks!

Grow Strong my little banana!
Love,
Mommy

18 Weeks!

I soon realized after taking this pic that I am in fact, barefoot & pregnant. I then tried to crop my feet out, but it just wouldn't work! Guess you can say my Arkansas boy is rubbing off on me ;-)

How far along? 18 weeks, 5 days. 

Total weight gain/loss: 12 lbs...(and feeling every bit of it!)

Maternity clothes? Rocking some awesome maternity boyfriend jeans & Target maternity v-neck in this pic...I have officially converted, and may never stop wearing maternity jeans might I add! 

Stretch marks? No, still need Bio Oil...Pregnancy brain sucks! I can't remember anything! 

Sleep: ehhh, so so... but at least the cough is pretty much gone! But the back pain has started! yikes!

Best moment this week: No doctor's appointments this past week, so I guess maybe the best moments have been: officially picking a boys name (No, I won't tell you, and we're still undecided on the girl one!), hearing everyone's gender guesses has been fun! (So many people have had dreams about our baby, so funny!) Oh, and I did get my first congratulations from a complete stranger...and that was a sweet moment. 

Miss Anything? Need I say it? Alcohol. I think I was set off this week by emptying an old wine bottle I found in the fridge....even at several months old, the scent was glorious!

 Movement: I'm gonna go with not yet! I don't think so anyway. Every time I feel any kind of cramp I'm like, "Is that it?" But I've been told that when you know, you know...and well, I just don't know! 

Food cravings: V-8! (Spicy of course! With extra hot sauce and salt!) So weird since I never touched the stuff pre-pregnancy.  I think I had a glass every day after work this week!
Anything making you queasy or sick: Still coffee!

Have you started to show yet: yep!

Gender prediction: Boy, hubby says girl! One week and we shall see! 

Labor Signs: No

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy this week! No crying fits to report! Maybe a little pissy at times if I am being completely candid.

Looking forward to: Our gender-reveal party and of course finding out what love bug is, and feeling some kicks! 

Grow Strong my little sweet potato! 
Love,
mommy

16 Weeks! WHO DAT BABY!!!

So, the Saints may not be doing so hot right now, but our little bambino will still be a WHO DAT!

How far along? 16 Weeks, 5 days. 

Total weight gain/loss: 11lbs. (Womp Womp....)

Maternity clothes?Mine finally came in! I have been loving my new full panel black leggings, and the skinny jeans aren't so bad either... I feel stylish again, instead of just a 10lbs sausage in a 5 lbs. wrapper. (Well, except for my Saints apparel, still gotta squeeze into that for the time being!)

Stretch marks? No, still have yet to get Bio-Oil, must.go.this.week.must.stop.them.dead.in.their.tracks!

Sleep: Sleeping is still sucking. Last week I found out my cough was actually bronchitis. But I got some antibiotics (safe ones for the bambino of course), and appear to be on the mend. 
Best moment this week:Getting the results back from our sequential screening (testing for Down Syndrome etc.) All negative! Praise God! Originally I wasn't going to get any of this done, as it didn't make a difference if baby had any abnormalities or not, but my high-risk doctor recommended it since it also checks on the placenta (in which case mine is already low, and being monitored!) But I am happy to report that over the last two weeks its moved up from covering 1/2 the cervix, to 1/3rd of it! KEEP ON CLIMBING!!
We also asked some of our best buds, Brittany and Chase, to be baby's godparents, they graciously accepted. 

Miss Anything? I miss actually enjoying coffee on a fall morning, since the smell is still making me ill!

 Movement: Not yet!

Food cravings: Hot dogs!! (Don't worry, we heated them properly!) and cheese, just cut up pieces of cheese... what am I? 5?

Anything making you queasy or sick: The smell of coffee, but I have indulged in a few iced coffees (Hello Pumpkin Spice!! So nice to see you again!) And they seem to go down fine, but you won't find me inside of a coffee shop, or drinking anything hot and fragrant any time soon!  

Have you started to show yet: Oh yes, but I haven't been asked anything pregnancy related by a stranger yet...

Gender prediction: Boy and hubby thinks it's a girl!

Labor Signs: No

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time:Still a big cry baby. This week I cried over Glee again,and also after I spilled Taco Bell on the sofa.

Looking forward to:The big reveal, and feeling some kicks!

Grow strong my little navel orange.

Love,

Mommy

14 Weeks!

How far along? 14 weeks 3 days

Total weight gain/loss:8 lbs. (no weight gain this week at the doc...WOO HOO!!!)

Maternity clothes? Still waiting on the ones I ordered to come in! Until then, it's maxi skirts and dresses all dang day for this girl!

Stretch marks? No, which reminds me, I gotta get some Bio Oil this week! While we're on the subject, Mommys, what was your favorite stretch mark remedy?

Sleep: Sleeping has been particularly rough this week, as I have developed a nasty cough, (Which I think is allergies) And the cough medicine I am allowed to take doesn't work at all!

Best moment this week: Hearing baby's heartbeat on the Doppler at my regular doctor's appointment. (Regular doc every 4 weeks, high-risk every 2....its bound to get confusing at some point)

Miss Anything? Sandwiches! (technically preggos shouldn't have them unless they're heated because the meat could carry Listeria) but I did cheat and have 3 finger sandwiches at a party yesterday...which only left me wanting more!

 Movement: Not yet!

Food cravings: Still all things spicy and/or salty. But I did crave my first sweet thing this week...MAGIC SHELL! I think I had ice cream with it on it every night this week, but I really only wanted the shell...and perhaps have considered eating it straight from the bottle at times (I haven't yet, for the record) 

Anything making you queasy or sick: coffee, the smell of paper towels!! (So weird I know, but my theory is that I spent so much time in the first trimester covering my mouth with them when I felt sick...that now they take me back to that time. Hahaha 

Have you started to show yet: definitely popping out more this week then 2 weeks ago, which is strange since I didn't gain weight... but I'll take it!

Gender prediction: Boy and my hubby just revealed he thinks it's a girl!

Labor Signs: No

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: definitely so moody this week. I cried super hard twice this week for no real reasons. Once watching Glee, (and nothing super emotional really happened...yet I cried for a solid 30 mins!!) The other was one night while battling the cough and my hubby got up and slept in the guest bed because I was keeping him up! When he walked out, I just sobbed and sobbed. I feel like I have a cry switch I can turn on and off at any time these days!

Looking forward to: Our gender-reveal party and of course finding out what peanut is, and feeling some kicks! 

Grow Strong my little lemon!
Love,
Mommy

12 Weeks!

...And finally starting to feel better! Thank you Jesus!

How far along? 12 weeks, 3 days (in this pic...next week I'll catch up!)

Total weight gain/loss:8 lbs. (this question may be deleted soon...)

Maternity clothes? bought some online while they were on sale, that haven't come in yet! Currently using ye old rubber band trick to hold my jeans up!

Stretch marks? No

Sleep: Sleeping has recently made a turn for the worse! Seems like my days of "deep sleep" are gone for now...or ever.

Best moment this week: Seeing our precious little peanut on screen again! And this time he/she actually looked like a baby!

Miss Anything?Alcohol. Terrible I know, but it smells so good these days!

 Movement: Not yet!

Food cravings: Still all things spicy and/or salty. Banana peppers, pickles, buffalo wings, taco bell soft tacos (so weird because that's so not my typical order at The Bell)

Anything making you queasy or sick: coffee 

Have you started to show yet: popping out just a little...

Gender prediction: Boy

Labor Signs: No

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: mostly happy!

Looking forward to:Finding out if it's a boy or girl, and feeling baby move around!

Doctor says baby looks great! But my placenta is a little low, so we're hoping it just moves up over time like it's suppose to.

Grow strong my little plum!!
Love,
Mommy

10 Weeks!

I'm really slacking on this blog lately (Thank you, Hurricane Isaac!), but anyway, a couple weeks ago I went in for my 10 week check up! As always I was quite nervous, but after what seemed like forever, my doctor was able to pick up baby's heartbeat on the Doppler! 172 bpm! Whew! It takes an eternity to find it on there when you're a worrying mom in her first trimester! Doc says baby looks great, and then she dealt me this blow....

I want you to have a C-Section.

Not the first thing I wanted, but it's understandable. For those of you who may be reading but do not know me, I have a mild form of Cerebral Palsy, and one of the ways it effects me is by having a [very] limited gait. My doctor fears that if they give me an epidural, and then stretch me all kinds of ways, I'll end up with a beautiful newborn....and 2 broken legs. No bueno. 

So after getting over the initial shock, I went home and did my research The overwhelming response was that people with CP can have perfectly healthy pregnancies and deliveries, but they always end up through C-Section.

We are going to a high risk doctor in a week for a 2nd opinion [at my doctor's request], but I've pretty much settled on the fact that she will likely say the same thing. 

And I guess if there's any kind of silver lining to this, at least all of our out of town family will be able to be there for the birth.

Anyway, moving on... a few months ago I stumbled upon the cutest pregnancy blog....

http://littlebabygarvin.blogspot.com/

This girl is so adorable & creative.

No, sadly I am not artsy fartsy enough to also do a chalkboard...but I love her little weekly questionnaire, so I will be borrowing that! (Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery...anyone?)

 Here I am at that ever so awkward phase of, "Is she pregnant? Or just getting chubby?" I often tell my husband that this middle ground of pregnancy shouldn't exist. Women should just wake up one day with a definite bump. 

How far along? 10 weeks, 4 days (in this pic...12 week update soon...I know I'm slacking!)

Total weight gain/loss: 5 lbs...already! Yikes! But, in my defense, we did go on a 10 day vacation before this checkup!

Maternity clothes? Not yet, but my pants sure are snug. 

Stretch marks? No

Sleep: Sleeping pretty well. no better/worse than pre-pregnancy.

Best moment this week: Hearing baby's strong heartbeat <3

Miss Anything? Margariiiiiitas with the family! They were tossing them back the other day when we made our big announcement, and I was so sad I couldn't partake!

 Movement: Not yet!

Food cravings: All things spicy. jalapenos [straight from the jar], Rotel, buffalo wings, but also some "normal" things like, pickles, cheese, milk, and fruit!

Anything making you queasy or sick: Coffee, my vitamin.

Have you started to show yet: Definitely by the end of the day... 

Gender prediction: Boy

Labor Signs: No

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: Ehhh, a little moody, but mostly happy!

Looking forward to:Finding out if it's a boy or girl, and feeling baby move around! 

Grow strong my little prune,

Mommy

Playing Catch Up!

Not that anyone is reading this (yet!), but we went on a nice LOOOONG vacay with my in-laws over the last couple of weeks, which explains the lack of posting!

Since I last posted, I went for a check-up at 6 weeks 2 days pregnant. The first thing they did was send me straight to the ultrasound room. It was there that I waited for what seemed like an eternity for the tech and the doctor to come in. In those moments, I prayed and prayed that we would hear baby's heartbeat....at 6 weeks it still isn't a given we would hear it, but I wanted to so bad.

Finally everyone entered the room at once (even my hubby who was running late!). And there was our little peanut on the screen for all to see, but I didn't hear anything, so naturally I started to silently worry. But then she turned the speakers up....and I heard the most beautiful sound I've ever heard. A steady "lub-dub" coming in at 120bpm. And if you know anything about me, you know I am a HIGHLY emotional person...so needless to say, I let out the loudest, most obnoxious, cry. I must have sounded like a 3 year old.

Not that this means we're "out of the woods" yet, but it sure was reassuring.

We also told my husband's family while on vacation, which was so special.
While we were all together in the kitchen, Will snuck and took a video as I handed them a card and said, "We just wanted to say thank you for taking us on vacation." (So they wouldn't expect anything!)

Inside of the card was this picture...

 Everyone hugged and cried, and it was such a wonderful moment.

Next week is my 10 week checkup, and a few days after that we will be telling my dad and step-mom (we've been waiting for them to come into town!)

Grow strong my little [green] olive! (That's how big you are now!)
I love you!
Mommy

First Doctor's Appointment

So, I went to the doctor this past Thursday (7/19) for what I thought was my first appointment, but when I got up to the counter the receptionist looked dumbfounded by my name, and then told me that my appointment was actually the following Thursday (7/26).

Pregnancy Brain already?!?

Anyway, because both Will and I had taken off of work, the nurse practitioner was gracious enough to see us!

I was so nervous! But they didn't do a whole lot! I was mostly very anxious to see if they were gonna do an ultrasound...which they did, and it was super cool to see the sac and little seed...but because I was only 5 weeks and not 6, (remember my appointment was for the following week!) we couldn't hear our little peanut's heartbeat yet...bummer.

Naturally, as I think any new mother would do, I went into freak out mode, but the nurse assured us again and again that it was just a little too early and that she isn't worried at all, and that everything she did see on the ultrasound were all good signs.

I am just so thankful that right before the ultrasound I told her my cycle is 33-34 days and I ovulate late, because they were thinking I was close to 7 weeks...and if we didn't hear a heartbeat then it could have been a bad sign, but alas, I am only 5 weeks.

I guess the fact that I'm only 5 weeks could also explain the lack of symptoms, which of course had me worried as well. I don't have any real nausea, (yet!) and I'm always tired...so I don't know if that's anything new. But I do have very sore breasts and a strange hankering for all things spicy!

Grow strong my little pea!
Mommy

Dear Baby,

There is so much I want to tell you.
First of all, I want to let you know that Daddy and I prayed earnestly for you.
We prayed for when would be the best time to have you.
We prayed for the blessing to be able to experience pregnancy.
And now here we are, praying for a healthy, beautiful, perfect, baby.

Mommy doesn't care if you are a boy or a girl,
Or if you are born in Summer, Fall, Winter, or Spring,
Or if you have lots of dark hair like mommy and daddy,
or none at all.
Mommy doesn't care if you have daddy's beautiful blue eyes, or my brown ones.
Or fair skin, or dark skin.
Mommy just wants you to be healthy.
Please, grow strong (and be strong) for mommy.
I'm a nervous wreck.

I love you my little apple seed (That's how big you are now!),
Mommy

So, other than a brief stint at Xanga years ago, I'm pretty new at this "blog thing." I'm literally looking at the screen like, "Ok...so I just type?" Anyway...

So, I promised myself years ago that when my husband and I started a family I would document our journey from the very beginning.

Well, yesterday for the very first time I saw two beautiful lines on (2) pregnancy tests...so here I am!

Honestly, the whole day still feels unreal. We had been trying for a few months without success and like any woman, I started to question if something was wrong with me. (even though deep down I really didn't feel like anything was) I'm just very impatient!

I had worked myself up all week long saying, "Friday is the day!" "Friday is when I'll take a test!" In actuality I was about a week late and could have took one days before then, but I kept thinking if I took one it would just be negative, and then this hopefulness and excitement (I was trying not to get too excited!) would be gone. So, needless to say, its been a long week!

As I sat in the bathroom waiting for the results I just prayed and prayed, "Your will be done." I didn't plead with God to be pregnant, in fact, I asked for him to soothe my disappointment if it was negative and ensure me that it will happen in his timing, not mine.

You ever dream of a day in your head and imagine exactly how it was going to go? Yeah, that's not how this went. I always thought either my husband wouldn't be home and I'd do some cutesy little thing to let him know I was pregnant, or if he was home, he would wait in there with me and when that pretty little positive came up we'd cry and embrace.

Instead, it went a little something like this:

Me in the bathroom in our bedroom.
Will in the kitchen.

Me: (In the most obnoxious white-trash scream) "Willlllllllllll!!! I'm PREGNAAAAAANT!"
Will: "Whaaaat?"

Then we stared at the two tests in disbelief (I may or may not have left them on the counter all day just to look at) and then we embraced <3. But oddly enough there were no tears. Maybe it was the shock?

And then I left to go to work, surrounded by babies all day. How's one suppose to accomplish anything? I couldn't think of anything else.